Thank you 2019!

2019 has been a great learning experience for me!

I know I’ve been the worst blogger, but I’ve got my 12th finals coming up in 2 months! AND I’M SO DAMN NERVOUS ☹

How have you been? (Let me know in the comments)

2019-what all I experienced.

A few months ago, one of my batch mates committed sucide, and that was the most horrific time I’d ever been in my life. It was like I was stuck in the spirals of my thoughts! Each and every moment I would think of her and why she took such a huge step. I would cry till my eyes dried up. I really wanted to write a blog post about it, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t get myself to do it. I never shared how actually i felt about the whole situation with anyone, because nothing could explain that weird feeling! (I’ll write a whole another post about it in future)

2019 made me realise how important it is to enjoy each and every moment of the day. I took part in stupidity with my classmates this year and God! It was all so fun! I’m so glad that I’ve made so many new friends over this year, and I cannot wait to make more in 2020.

This year, for the first time in my life did someone actually fell for me. That guy (whom I’ll call Jess) has been asking me out for months now. And I haven’t agreed to it, because its weird and honestly I ddon’t actually like him “that way”. But the thing is,he made me feel important and loved in a way I never thought I would ever feel. But I really dont wanna mess with his feelings, so I’m just staying out of it! (Am I doing it right)

Its already a pretty long post! I’ll keep some things for some other time!

Thank you guys for reading! And I actually completed a year on 21st December here! Yay❤

Hope you dont hate me x

BYE

PENNY XXX

Dream like they all will come true🌟

We are all doing this thing called “living”. But is it enough?

A few lines that I wrote ~

When was the last time that you stayed awake at night?
When the whole world was asleep,
And the stars made the sky bright.
When your eyes saw dreams with hope in them,
When you felt the rain and didn't just get wet
Get up from your bed! and look outside the window.
And leave a little sparkle wherever you go
Listen carefully, what the stars say to you,
Dream like they all will come true.
Wonder how the stars got where they are,
And never forget, to remember , who you are.
Your thoughts are like the stars that twinkle,
Try and arrange them in a beautiful constellation.
The stars are dancing to the earth's singing,
Always be who you are when no one's watching.
They shine in the clear sky, and when it's cloudy, they disappear,
Clear the smoke around YOU,
And like those sparkly stars, shine again, and reappear 🌟💞

This is something that came to my mind when I thought about dreams. They are the reasons we are still alive, because we have something to look forward to. We have something that we’ve got to achieve before we die.

Dreams keeps you wondering.💗 They make you forget all the nonsense around you, motivating you to move forward no matter what.

What is your dream? What gives you the motivation to wake up every single day? Create your own stars of thought, and work hard to arrange them into a beautiful constellation ❤

I’d love to read what you’ve got in your mind!

Thank you for reading!

Bye, until next time💞

Penny xxx

RANDOM LIFE UPDATE 🤪

Hello beautiful people (who probably hate me for not being here for so long!)

I spent the month of may and June in my native enjoying my summer vacations.☀️ Everyday I was like “I WILL WRITE A BLOG POST” but soon lost inspiration. So here I am finally! Feeling guilty than ever. (HOPE YOU GUYS STILL REMEMBER ME) I haven’t even checked my mails😥

THINGS THAT I DID WHILE I WAS AWAY:-

I started watching “Gilmore Girls” ❤ and OMG I love it! It warms my heart.

I read a couple of novels, my favourites being, “PALACE OF ILLUTIONS”, It’s a book my cousin forcefully made me read…. and i am glad I did! IT’S SO DAMN GOOD! It’s based on th Indian epic “MAHABHARATA” but itsit’s from a women’s point of view, so was really unique and new💝

AND I THINK I HAVE A CRUSH ON NOAH CENTINEO! I watched almost all his movies! Like everyday I used to watch one! “THE PERFECT DATE” being my fav🖤

I made many new drawings, which I’ll show you guys in my following posts probably.

I wrote many new poems, which I want to show you guys so badly! X

I spent an amazing time on the beach, sunbathing. It was so relaxing!😘

OH and I fell in love with another song of Taylor, “YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN!” it’s so good! My ears are blessed!

P.S I’LL TRY TO CATCH UP WITH ALL YOUR POSTS AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!❤

WANNA TELL YOU GUYS SO MUCH MORE, (NOW THAT MY SCHOOL HAS REOPNED, AND YOU KNOW THE “DRAMA” AND STUFF)

HOPE YOU DON’T HATE ME😅

MISSED YOU❤

BYEE (JUST FOR NOW, NOT FOREVER LOL😂)

PENNY xxx

Feels new 😁/🤨

Hello my lovely readers🖤

What’s up guys? (Really tell me what’s up. I wanna know how are you guys? You never tell me about yourself🤨)

You must be guessing what feels new? Well it’s a little girly thing 😆 Today I waxed my hands for the first time! (I know it’s not a big deal, but dude I’m 17😂)

But I’m here to tell some serious stuff. Students sit upright and pay attention 🤫

The thing is, I feel good that now my hands look and feels smooth. BUT I used to feel really very uncomfortable wearing sleeveless tops or half sleeve Tees before shaving my hands , i.e till yesterday.

I felt like I’m an alien or something. I preferred wearing long sleeve stuff🙄 But now I feel comfortable .

The question is WHY?

Why didn’t I feel good about myself before today? Is it because I didn’t look good with all the hair? Or I looked like a gorilla or something?

No.

It is because of the perception! YES. The society things that the definition of PERFECT women/girl is “spotless skin, hairless hands, flat body and perfect figure”

It is the society that binds us to do stuff we don’t usually care about before we notice it. (My hands starting bothering me when I was 15 or 16, because prior to that i didn’t really care )

So the thing is when will the perceptions of society change? Or will we always have to go according to their rules?

This is a short post. But I guess I explained well I wanted to convey in these few lines.

What do you think? We are the future generation, we must really think about it! Don’t you think so?

LET’S DEBATE!

Bye,

Penny x

I am not a thing.

Hello! how are you my lovely readers? or I should say my “not so personal diary”

I too feel bad.

Hey. You must have known me as a happy, playful and lively person (for those you have been reading my blogs). Well I AM a playful person, I like to be happy and make everyone around me happy. Whenever I pass someone on the way, whether I know that person or not, I make sure that I smile. Because one smile can prove to be very helpful to a person who is having a bad day!

BUT.

I sometimes feel that people use me. They use me as a thing they can take help from when needed and discard when not is use. Do you feel the same?

I KNOW that I may sound over dramatic, but… this is what we teenagers go through! LOADS AND LOADS OF DRAMA! Agree girls and boys?

There are some people in my class, they will keep roaming around me during exams, when they need some help from me, or when they want me to explain something to them. (UGH YES I AM A NERD) But when exams are over, or when they are in no need of any textual knowledge, they don’t give a damn to me. They don’t include me in their conversations, they say that I am too nerdy to understand what they are talking about. Their most common excuse would be- “Oh penny! you are too innocent just stay away from our stupid conversations”. Sometimes I feel that they maybe right, that yes! I should just stay away from all the nonsense they are talking about, but then a part of me feels left out. I feel that why am i like this? Why does everyone think I am boring? Why do they only see one side of me? How can I change myself? But then again I think-

WHY SHOULD I CHANGE MYSELF?

That is why I like to engage myself by reading novels, I allow myself to dive into some other person’s life, and see what they are going through, and how do they cope with all their problems. AND THEN MY CLASSMATES THINK THAT I AM “BORING”

I really don’t know what to do? Should I stop helping or pleasing others and live a life only for myself?(i cannot do that)

I need help. It concludes this post. I know that all of you must have a thing or two you can tell me which might be of some help.

Your advises always help! Thank you in advance x

Bye!

Penny xxx

P.S There is one more situation I am in, similar to this, but I am not actually comfortable to share it with the whole world. Maybe I’ll tell it to some of you guys in a private post in the future. Tell me if you are interested in some more drama!

Where have I been?

Hey! my lovely readers🖤 (if anyone is still following me)

I am back! After a month I guess… and yess I’m alive😂I SURVIVED MY EXAMS!!!

So you’ll be thinking “where was this girl?” “She must be sleeping all these days” “she’s lazy”

Well, these are partially right🤣 LOL just kidding* I was in the battle field against some very cruel and brutal enemies! They were from the history, political, geographical and language kingdom! But guys I defeated them all! YAY🏆

you must me thinking that exam must have done something wrong with my head, that’s why I’m behaving so stupidly 😂 maybe you are right! Exams always manage to mess with my poor brain. I’ve a LOT of stuff to share with you guys! Literally a lot! I hope you’re ready for it!

Hope you missed me? Did you? (I’ll be hurt if you didn’t 😂🖤)

P.s this time penny is here to stay! Writing feels like heaven! I’m feeling like I’m finally back home!

I’ll catch up with everything I’ve missed💕

Byee (not forever)

Your annoying fellow blogger,

PENNY xxx